Few things I realized this 2019 which for sure will pave for a bright and happy 2020.
This year has been tough for sure but for me 2018 was tougher. It was a hell of a roller coaster ride of different emotions such as being happy, sad, in despair, pain etc.The struggles are real, but I learned so many lessons as well.
I learned that letting go of the past is still painful because deep inside you are still holding on. But it is okay to cut ties with some people in your life who are only causing you so much pain. It is hard to let go that’s 100% sure but you should not compromise your peace of mind and your mental health for people who just want to be with you because they can use you. The moment that you finally let go, you will live again.
Self-love is the greatest love of all. No one will love you except yourself. So you have to love yourself. Stop giving yourself to people who wil not even give a few seconds of their time to you. You deserve more than that.
Depression is real. You need to have a healthy mental state. You need to unwind and you have to treat yourself once in a while. Eat alone, watch movie alone and travel alone. At the end of the day, you will be alone so you have to learn to do things alone but make sure to enjoy every moment of it.
Some people are not really your friends. Some will only be there during your happy days, and when they need you the most. But when you are wallowing in pain and misery they will leave you like you are nothing to them.The truth is, all you have is yourself. You have to be strong for yourself. Be strong because you have no other choice, to be able to survive. You need to be brave to chase your dreams and goals.
Most important lesson I learned these past few years is to stop chasing people because it is never worth it. Some people will see you worthless, let them be. But there are people who genuinely sees your worth. Keep them. Some people will make you question your self worth but always remember you are so damn worth it since the beginning. By forcing love and connection will only cause you pain and rejection. Stay away from shitty people.
My pain and suffering happens for a reason. I may not be able to understand the reason behind for now, but soon enough I know I will. What I am sure right now is that these pain and sufferings I am dealing with change me to a stronger and braver person.
My life’s journey always have delays and hardships(as in always) but I still got smile on my face. I learned to be positive and to look at the brighter side of life though it is always a struggle to find the light.
Life with Love 